I am moving to Sweden

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A new beginning

Oh, how excited I am to finally write this post and share all the news with you! The past couple of months have been filled with writing applications, lots of waiting and a bit of New Years blues. Moving country has been more exhausting than I expected - not only because the job application process and all the waiting for feedback can really task your nerves but also because I underestimated my own emotions regarding to leaving my friends and family behind while starting a new life in Sweden. Having some stress related heart issues in addition, everything became a bit too much so I took a bit of time off to find back to myself and out of all the doubts and worries. I’d lie if I said that I am all okay again, but still I kept searching for jobs and writing applications until I found a job offer in Småland. Even though my dream is to live at the countryside in Norrland, I wanted to try everything for the beginning to put some roots in Sweden and did not care much if that means to live in the south of Sweden for the first couple of months. Also, Småland is very beautiful in the Summer and being close to the lake can make the warmer days so much more enjoyable as someone who tends to hide from the sun, so I wrote an application and crossed my fingers.

Only a few days later, I got an email from Karin, the woman who is owning a campsite in Småland and moved from Switzerland to Sweden with her husband herself many years back. We talked on phone, cleared a lot of initial questions and decided then that I’d love to come over for a couple of days to get to know each other and also get to know the place to see if I could imagine to work there for the next six months. So I flew over last month and visited them for a weekend. We had the most beautiful sunny weather which made it possible to explore the forests, watch the sunset at the lake and having a little trip to the sea.

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A weekend in Småland

They prepared one of there coziest cottages for me to stay in for the weekend and I enjoyed that so much, having the forest behind the cabin, seeing the lake in front of the window. In the Summer season they offer cozy cottages, simple and also more advanced ones, but also spaces for campervans so you can stay for a while and enjoy the idylle, maybe rent a boat or go for a hike through nature.

I really enjoyed my time there and was able to get to know the family running this place. I felt warmly welcomed as soon as I arrived and we spent the days crafting, talking and having dinner together. Their warmhearted being and the kind atmosphere really made such a difference and made me feel very comfortable around them.

Working at the campsite would offer me the possibility to get the personennummer which you basically need for everything if you wanna live in Sweden permanently, like getting a bank account, signing contracts, etc. This job would make it possible to get the PN and also having help with all the administration since Karin and Roger went through the same when they moved to Sweden. Just having someone around who has a helping hand if I need one feels less scary. Also, I would be able to slowly get into the Swedish language, since I finished the A1 classes at my university but wasn’t able to use the language so much here in Germany. So eventhough I would be forced to speak Swedish with the Swedish campers it is a more gentle way to get into it than maybe working at a “real” Swedish company right from the beginning, for example.

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My life at the campsite

While working at the campsite I will live in a campervan on a little hill at the property. First I was a bit sceptical since I was dreaming of a little cabin to live in, but now I think that it can be really cozy and nice for the Summer and it won’t be forever so for the beginning it will be fine. This way it might feel more like being on vacation than going to work.
The closest town is just three kilometers away so I can easily take a bike or go by foot if I need to get some groceries, or also take the bus to Västervik or Vimmerby if I need to run some errands. My work would be very diversified because I will help with whatever needs to be done and meet a lot of different people throughout this Summer. Most likely, I will work a lot at the reception or take care of the cabins, as well as work on the website and social media for the campsite which I’m looking forward to.

All in all, this seemed like a really good opportunity to start my life in Sweden and to put some roots, figuring out all the things in the beginning and then moving further up North in Autumn. So the other day I wrote to Karin that I would love to work at their place and spend the Summer in Småland. She was really happy and looking forward to me coming over and being part of the team.

After this decision the days have been a bit confusing. Suddenly everything I dreamt of for so long became real and that was exciting but also so very frightening, because it is so different to dream about something than actually doing it. I was totally overwhelmed by all the fears, doubts and anxiety that rolled over me making me feel totally confused about myself, my life and dreams. I was wondering if I was doing the right thing or maybe a huge mistake leaving everything behind and moving to a new country. I was feeling so very sad for days and just wanted to stay in bed.

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“Be brave, little heart”

But after I shared my worries and feelings, people reminded me that this IS a big step to take and it is totally normal that all my fears and doubts that were hiding inside of me while I was just dreaming showed up now when it became serious. I need to take my time and move in my own pace. There will be days that I will feel lonely and sad and miss my old home, and the beginning will probably be the worst. But I will settle at my new home and I will figure everything out that will come. I am so looking forward to being close to nature, having the forest right behind my campervan, the lake in front of the campingsite to cool down in Summer. I know I will feel safe and comforted being close to the trees again, which I missed so very much here in my hometown the past years. I know I will be alright and I will be happy. Of course it won´t be easy, but that`s okay.

Two weeks ago, I finally booked my flight for the 9th of May - in two days. The past couple of days I felt like a zombie, sitting in front of my suitcase unable to finish packing because everything seems so surreal. I spent lots of time with my beloved ones and my heart is constantly aching. I underestimated how much it would hurt me and right now everything feels sad. But I know this, too, shall pass. And nothing is forever. This is just another great adventure, an opportunity, and there is always a way back.

I cannot believe that it will happen now - my mind is just not able to understand. And it probably won´t until I am waking up in my camper in the morning for the first time.

Until then, lots of love to you!
- Michelle