The dream of a cottage in Sweden

Saturday, June 24, 2017


Happy Midsummer, everyone! It has been insanely hot here the past couple of days, but now it finally cooled down and the sky is covered in clouds while the wind is running through the trees in our garden. I am sitting at my window watching them, thinking.

Last night I have been randomly searching for homesteads in the north of Sweden and suddenly I've found the perfect cottage for me. I've got so excited I could not fall asleep afterwards. It is a red wooden house right in front of a sea, the forest in the backyard near a small village nearby Lapland. It looked like the perfect home for me - I could already imagine myself standing in front of the main door. And the price isn't as high as I expected! My mind went crazy. I imagined buying this house, moving to the north of Sweden after finishing my study in Winter, living near the sea while I renovate the inside of the house, making it my home, documenting my life and process there! My heart is jumping up and down with this thought.

But of course, I have so many things to consider - financial facts, visiting the house, moving plans, my study, support by friends and family - the list is long. I was thinking about starting a crowdfunding campaign so people who would like to support me and my dream could do so and in return, I could offer insight into my life and moving there, songs and other perks. This would be all quite a big thing so I have to think about it properly.


There are two voices in my head. One of them is cheering me on to buy this house and move there as soon as possible because we both know I belong there! Now or never - why should I wait if this is what I want so desperately? But then the other voice comes in - the one that wants to destroy my little dream. It brings up all the doubt and fear. How should I finance this? Could I survive there on my own? It would include so much struggle and is not as rosy as I imagine it! You are too young, you should get a job first,  a n d   s o   o n ... 

Yes, I am afraid. But it doesn't change my excitement at all, and my wish to live that life! Yes, I know it will be hard and a lot of work, but damn I am looking forward to it. Challenges make life exciting! Yes, I could stay here forever, get an ordinary job and be unhappy for the rest of my life - because I am running from my fears. But life is so short, so so short and why should I waste it with things I don't want? I would rather make a big mistake but go for my dreams, instead of burying them and be unhappy. 

I am watching the leaves flying in the wind, how the trees are bending in the breeze. They look like green waves. What will be, will be. Things will come how they should. That's what I've always believed in, but sometimes I forget. I tend to stress myself too much because I am afraid that it will be too late, that I have to act now. But I don't, I should keep calm and let life happen. 
I will keep you updated with my house-finding process and all what's going on! I hope you are as excited as I am because I love to share passion and dreams - "happiness is only real when shar'd". Have a wonderful weekend! I hope you are all fine and live your dreams!

Photos by Polly Balitro

9 comments:

  1. Sounds amazing and you are so brave. It took me 10 years longer to do what felt right. I'm not trying to be negative, but after living in this cold and dark place all my life, I wonder if you could rent a place first to see if you really like this lifestyle.

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    1. That's a good objection, Stella. Although I think this is really what I want. I already experienced the darkness in Finland and although of course that's not completely comparable with the real life up in the north I feel ready and good with the thought of living that lifestyle :)
      but hey there is still a way to go and time to consider and try things out ;)

      But of course I am open for every idea and tip and experiences because I need a lot to learn :)

      Love to you!

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  2. I find myself looking for northern Swedish dream houses most days now, Brexit is making this feel more complicated for me right now as a UK citizen. Go for it! You won't know unless you try :)

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    1. Yeah I can imagine that it is harder for you now. That's really annoying but I am sure your will make your way to the north anyway. Lots of love to you, thank your for your sweet words <3

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  3. Hello, Michelle, I found your blog quite by accident - browsing for bloggers who live in the woods like I do! I am quite a bit older than you, and have made my choices already, but when I was 26 years old, my husband and I (with 3 little ones) moved onto our land in the foothills of Washington State and I have been so very happy we made this decision all those years ago. It was a struggle and we had very few funds, but we had this dream........I say - follow your dreams! If they are true, you will find a way. I have scrolled down and read a few of your blog posts - you are a lovely writer and artist. xx Karen

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    1. Oh Karen, thank you so so much for your kind and encouraging words! This means a lot to me and gives me hope and strength to go after my dreams! I am so happy to hear that you've have made the right decision! <3
      Lots of love to you!
      Take care,
      M.

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  4. Ahh this post just makes my heart sing because i know that same feeling of exitment and dreams coming true! GO FOR IT!! This gives me hope and confidence to accomplish my dreams as a young woman as well! Thank you :)

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    1. OHHHHHH you make me really happy and excited with your comment, thank you so much!Go for whatever you dream of! Go chase your dreams and conquer the world <3 lots of love to you!

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  5. Hi Michelle!
    I just found your instagram accont accidently last night and then your blog.
    You can't imagine how inspiring I found your posts.
    I think we're kindred spirits but from a long long distance!
    I live in a big city, a polluted, noisy one. And i don't like it of course :-(
    I want to live in a small island and be a great astronomer!
    This dream gives me hope, makes me alive and for sure fears me so much!
    Imagining leaving most of the things you love and getting used to strangers is not a good point of it!
    But (as i read your post about introverted people and i'm just one,too) i keep imagining that the island's people are so kind, full of dreams and hopes! And the thought of living among such awesome people with having exciting adventures on the island relieves me!
    After finishing studying and taking a few steps toward being an astronomer, i will move to my lovely island!
    Don't hesitate Michelle, do everything possible to reach your ideal, take every chance, and enjoy the process <3
    I'll keep reading your inspiring magical words! :-)
    (sorry for such a huge comment ;-) )
    Wish you the best ❤
    Nooshin

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