unattainability

Wednesday, July 20, 2016

Do you know that feeling when you realize that you probably will never get something you want so very badly? That you will never experience a certain moment for real? All your imaginations, all the pictures in your head will always just stay dreams - forever. It feels like there is something dying. It feels like you've lost something, what you've never actually owned. Sometimes this awareness hits me really hard. So hard I can barely breathe. 
I still haven't found a way to deal with this feeling. 'Cause how do you deal with the loss of your own imagination? With a loss of a dream? Dreams are special. They are hope wrapped in bubbles, which make you survive your everyday life. But if this bubble bursts, what will be left? A blank space. Glitter of something that left. A feeling of a piece missing. 
But soon there will be a new piece. Replacing the missing one. At least I hope so. At least I wish for it.

But what if there died a dream that can never be replaced? What if there will always be this hole? 
There will always be a draft in my heart.

3 comments:

  1. Du hast gerade so wunderbar beschrieben wie ich mich auch manchmal fühle. :)

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    1. Oh ja, manchmal singt einem das Leben nicht nur glückliche Lieder :( ❤

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    2. Oh ja, manchmal singt einem das Leben nicht nur glückliche Lieder :( ❤

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