I am erratic

Thursday, July 14, 2016

Well, I remember I said I wanted to start a new series called "I am...". Can you remember as well? Because it seems like it has been ages since I announced this idea and since then I haven't really worked on an entry for it. And like always it's because I AM ERRATIC. 


Especially the past two years I recognized that I tend to have too many ideas and projects on my mind. I want to do a lot of new things, want to try this and that, I am constantly busy with planning projects. Maybe it 's because I am curious and I love to make new experiences. I love to find new facettes about myself and challenge myself. But very often people tell me that I should better focus on one thing and finish that one, put all effort into this one project. 
Hm, perhaps they are right. Maybe it would make more sense to concentrate on only one single thing, so it turns out the best. But I don't feel like it. It bores me to stay with only one idea, because I am full of ideas and love for life and all it hides. What if I get stuck in this little corner of life when I only do a single thing? What if I miss a talent that hides deep inside me if I only do what I can do best? What if knitting makes more fun than painting, of reading, or singing or baking cookies in the middle of the night? 
I don't want to stay with only one thing! And I finally accepted that that's okay, whatever other people think about it. I learnt a lot about myself in the past years, I realized there are a lot of things in life I am fascinated about and probably I would have never been so happy with painting and making music if I haven't had the idea of buying a ukulele or guitar, an expensive watercolor palette or pens. 
Do whatever you feel like, 'cause it will show you a different aspect of life and yourself! I am sure I will never give up all the ideas in my head, because there is way too much to still learn and try and experience! Take every chance to try something new, you never know where it will lead you! 

I will soon film a music video in the forest for some musicians. I would have never got this opportunity if I haven't started my photography, blog and all the things people smile about when I tell them. Maybe sometimes I wouldn't be that stressed out about all the things I still want to do and about getting everything organized, but life would be less exciting and interesting.

So, I will continue having way too many ideas in my mind and getting inspired by wonderful people doing wonderful things I wanna try out as well someday in my life! 

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Ar you as erratic as I am? Or do you like to concentrate on one thing in life? 

4 comments:

  1. hi michelle,

    yes. I am as erratic as you. :) (hopefully that doesn't sound like an insult!!!) . honestly, everything you wrote sums up how I feel and how I am. I think it is very common in creative people. we just can't seem to do just one thing! I try to focus on one thing at a time but sometimes I slip up. some days are easier than others. I will keep trying to focus on one aspect but for some I will not with hold and indulge in whatever those projects are. I think it's just very important to balance it all, you know?!

    x candace

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    1. Oh indeed, a balance is always the right thing! and I really feel you when you are tlking about "good and bad days". Sometimes I feel like I have finally found my one true talent, a project that makes me happy and which I want to put all my effort in. Like all the other beautiful souls on instagram who have there one way of painting and they just work on that, because it's their thing. But there always comes this moment again when I see something new and cool and I loose my track again. But who cares? My life should be colorful <3

      Love to you,
      thank you for sharing your thoughts!

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  2. Oh, your words made me very happy! Especially the part that you dont want to be defined as " Flavia the photographer" or "Flavia the painter", because that's exactly what I think! Thank you for supporting my idea of exploring life and all it contains!
    I feel less lonely now as well,
    I end lot of love to you!

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  3. I feel so erratic too, and then I just get lost in the black hole of Instagram. Not the ideal way to manage this. There is just not enough time in one lifetime I feel!! -MonaM

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